I haven't been in a really good place lately. I am struggling with staying on my healthy eating and exercising. It all started last Sunday for Mother's Day. I won't go into the details but I was depressed for 2 days and over ate and didn't exercise. I did lose 1 lb this week for a total of 52 lbs. and total for Chubby Chick Challenge 28 lbs. I was doing fine today and then this afternoon I started snacking and lost all control. I have to refocus. I need to change up some of my food choices. I think I am eating to many of the same things and I might be getting bored with them. This has happened to me before. I am also going to have to talk to my hubby and daughter about all of this. I was doing good with making them cookies and bringing in the ice cream and pastries but now that I am feeling out of control with the food I need to stop bringing in this stuff until I can get back to where I was.
I was reading one of my favorite blogs called Escape from Obesity the other day where she was talking about bloggers who fall off the weight loss wagon and just disappear. That is what I felt like doing. I was going to take a break from making entries. I know I only do an entry only once a week but I am starting to feel the shame of going back to my old eating habits and didn't want to post. I love the weight loss journals that I read where they are so brave and talk about all the junk they eat when they binge. I have been doing so good for 5 months and I have had a few slip ups but 4 days in the past week is over doing it, plus on top of not exercising is making it worse. When you get older it is so much harder to take off. Ok enough of my pity party.
My weekend was really busy but fun. On Saturday we celebrated my nephew turning 30. He was really surprised. He said he did not know about it. I love those kinds of surprises. We had to pay a cover charge but I didn't because it was to eat pizza and drink alcohol. I ordered a salad with chicken in it and had one glass of Merlot. I got a to go container since the salad could have fed 3 people. As it got later in the night I told my sister in law to put some extra pieces of pizza in it for my hubby and all the time I am thinking I wanted it for me on the ride home. She gave me about 15 slices of pizza. I had one on the way home and one when I got home. Pizza is my downfall. I can't be near it when I am feeling overwhelmed with food. I had a few more the next day and finished 3 more slices today. Thank goodness there is no more left.
Yesterday we had a family reunion but it was more of my cousin's side of the family. It was nice and I brought old time pictures that they loved looking at. My brother from California came. It was so great to see him. I invited them over for Memorial day. I think I will make a few steaks on the grill and not sure what else. He will be 60 on Wednesday and I asked him what he wanted to do but he said a few of his friends were having something planned so I might make a cake for him for next Monday. I swear I won't eat any. LOL
Last week I seen a fox across the street. It had something in its mouth. I thought it was a rabbit but it was a squirrel. I told my hubby not to let our dog Bambi out in front because I think that fox would just grab him. I seen the fox a few more times earlier in the month. I didn't think they came out during the day. I thought they hunted at night. I wish I would have gotten a picture. He was out there for a few minutes. I just copied a picture of this fox from the internet.